Memories : Riverside View

You know, yesterday, my father and my mother having a fight -________-;; ... and I'm doing nothing but just online on msn, i tried to find calming song because I'm tired to listen those noise that irritated my ear...

While loading 永遠の巫女 // Highly Responsive to Prayers by TAMusic,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=frvOM91bLnw

My mother started to cry, and shout my father -_- ... I don't get what she's saying.. cause I'm using headphone, and I closed the door, because they asked me to close the door let them do something first, at first, i thought it was just diccussion on getting a new shop, and then, *BAAM!* they shouted and scolde each other louder and louder and basically i do nothing, nothing at all i feel hopeless. I didn't cry because I've used to this.

Sigh. Weellllllllllllllll, it's life anyway ~~~ :O neeeeeeeeeeeeee
I sleep alone yesterday, I was scared cause it's all dark in my room but luckily i have radio in my room >< I listened to dango daikazoku :D calm me ~~ yay lawl ... :3 after all this happen dango daikazoku always calm me down~~

going to school >< Ja ne

Vanila Patchuline:Bio

Name: Vanila Patchuline

Age: around 16-17

Race: Half human half devil (l don't know why...)

Background:
Vanila came from a poor family that works for Bethilevens family, which always bullies them, they make all such weapons for Bethilevens family. Vanila's father is talented in doing weapon but was kept secretly in Bethilevens family, and lead their family's life so so so awful.
Vanila tries to break free from Bethilevens family, but this family is too big and (ish also royal family). Vanila wears an eye patch on her left eye, because this eye holds the secret of truth, her family tried to cover this by giving her an eye patch and call her to lied to everyone that she lost one eye, her eye colour are bright-yellow (right) and scarlet (left). One day, Beatrice Bethilevens (which is the ''only'' daughter in that family) bullies her, and Vanila is so angry that she accidentally release her deadly weapon, The Sorceress's Ring-Chain, and nearly-killed Beatrice.
Yesu, and she successfully escape from Bethilevens family (well, i skip a lot of part of it.. lol) mm~She escape from teh family only the age of 12.
namemeaning: vanila, hmm, yea same like ice cream vanilla, it means white, she resembles Iries too. hmm~ yea, but she has dark evil personality T^T

yea yea yea~~ done. I only get up this late for writing this post =O

[PRIVATE-STUFF]
Oh yea bunny ;w; sowwies can't chat with you today.. *hugs hugs*

Stupid. Clusmy. Useless?

Some of my friends often get angry cause I'm so so so stupid. clumsy, an idiot, useless, i always do mistake a lot, I'm trying to change, but it's hard ;w; ... and I don't want this kind of me stay here,
I wanna be someone who can handle things well, that's all, perfection, but I know perfection can hurt a lot, but nyaa~ i just wish i can handle stuff well, that's all ;w; I wish Shugo Chara really exist here T^T

I'm waiting for the holidays in September, so I can take my day and relax from nightmares of school. I know before holidays, I have test, TEST!! I haven't study ever since... may... cause that is the starting for dramas, the month that makes me down, depressed, it's just like everything doomed that day... well...~~

But I must say ''I will accept how I am, and I will change it.'' :3 !! GO GO GO!! the new me! (well, that's gonna take a long time T^T) huhuhu

Vanila Patchuline~

My new OC~~~ yay~~
Vanila Patchuline O3O ... I don't know why i name her Vanila... but...~~ yea~~ Patchulin~
I will write about her past everything etc~ next post~
Oyasuminasai *hugs hugs*

Upside down

It's fun to be upside down, cause you'll never know what happen next?
maybe maybe maybe, I wanna hang upside down, if the world ish upside down,
what image that i could see? Maybe illusion, maybe reality, maybe something dreamy,
or something softy/fluffy, you'll never know :3 nyahahahha (I'm randomy =w=)
Momo's computer just explode lol it's funneh how she act in school right now, missing her...
( please fill in ) =D not gonna say ~~ buu bleh~~

In love with a song call Fireflies from Owl City, awesome song, reminds me of my childhood days
XDDD ''Please take me away from here~~'' My favorite line in that song X33

AND AND AND bunny, only say ''mm'' (mostly) it seems that i make him bored super bored D8
omgawd now what? D8 my hyperactive side ish off now =O .. I'm doomed

[ I N N E R-S E L F ]

This is about my inner-self, (It's kinda like fantasy inside me D8 ), they talk to me when I'm alone, but some of them are annoying girls -_- I feel like hammer them >3>

Terrize Sherrlymuan Qualimen ( a.k.a Flandre )
The first one to appear in my fantasy world, she's 101% evil, wearing black gothic-lolita dress, with 2 crossed-belts around her chest, she wear claws in her right-hand (which also represents mighty).
She has red-eyes, long with curl-hair at the end, she wear feather too(dark feather), she has a pet dragon, she always talk to me (especially when I'm deeply-depressed) *tense* O3O
She's kind actually, but she's creeply evil =w= really evil, she have a sword which made of dragon's claw, owns dark magic =O and she's the strongest among 3 of them ~~well... let's go to the next person...~~

Canespear Vone Kreatiar
Teh cute one, Canespear, which mean candy (to me) X3~~ lol She is pure evil, often cries, weak, sturborn, she wear white-pure dress, fluffy dress, bunny ears and eye-patch on her right eye, her right eye is light-blue and her left eye ish pinkish (weird eh?) XDD~~She holds a huge hammer, teh bunny girl~~ she likes ice cream a lot nyahahaha xDD

Clementine Daylight
I didn't notice she ACTUALLY exist in my inner-self O__O, this name is pop-out on my mind.
D8 She's the strong one, often sturborn, independent, funny, and well, fierce too. But Flandre is more creepy than her =O She wears ...(hard to say) but she's pretty, her outfit colour are mostly orange-pinky or light stuff, you can tell her surname, ''Daylight'' bright right? She represents ''move along or strong/care only the one you should care'' She smoke actually OAO ... (what the heck is happening to me!?) buu.. I never get to see her weapon yet. lawl
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MY [ I N N E R - W O R L D ]
each one of them has their own territory, Flandre's is all dark, covered with crows and carcass, her pet dragon is there to guard, the ground is hmm.. (somewhat looks like black rock shooter's) but it's covered with dark feathers, it's some kind like a cave, with a cresent on top which brings moon-light in =O ... she stay there...

Canespear, well, her territory ish like ''doll world'' == it's all covered with ... white dolls (bunny/nekos/bears or whatever) she likes to sleep on top of the dolls (TRUST ME, if you been there, you can't even walk it cause too many stuffed-toy D8 )

Mm... and Clementine, her territory is kinda ... high class Lol her territory ... full of victorian stuff =O ... she always drink tea in her ''beloved-chair'' lawl well, that's it~

That's my inner-fantasy-world, (I think everyone is scared of me now? ;w;)

Bleh x3

=O ~~ Nothing to say really... hehe x3 ...

15 August 2010

It was a nice day, having shopping with ma mom~~~ I bought a scarf and went to a high-class restaurant today =3= ~~ and this whole day, i think of bunny's word yesterday T_T CAUSE HE STALK ME IN FACEBOOK!! and he saw my photo T_T darn darn darn T^T~~

:3 Listening to ''Distant Year - Clannad Original Soundtrack'' It's nice =O really...
It remains me of my childish days x3 huhuuh yea~~ XDD

I'm working hard now, trying hard, moving along, trying to forget someone ._. and it's another day of life anyway, I should be strong and start fighto!! My birthday is near =D August 23~~ yay~~ I wonder what special thing will happen that day, maybe that day, when the light appears, my life will full of happiness, maybe that day, the dark fairy will come to my dream and nightmare happens. O3O ... (everyone who know me will pretty much pissed off LOL)

I will post my [ I N N E R-S E L F ] characters in the next post! x3